.... without ... a horse in my keeping, I should feel I had lost contact with the earth.
I should be as concerned as a Buddhist monk having lost contact with Nirvana.
~ Beryl Markham
I found this quote and for the first time I felt that what my heart is feeling was expressed aptly in words. This is how I feel. So I started riding with a trainer that I have really connected with 3 times a week - and it is helping - helping me heal. Above is a painting I am working on as a study in preparation for this ...
a 36" x 60" painting that captures the spirit of my beloved mare - my sweet Ebony - it is helping
~ a friend told me that in processing this grief that she (Ebony) and I were both numb - but in time that her spirit would return to me and become part of me - to give me strength, courage, and safety
... it is beginning
Stage 1
Laying out a drawing to find scale on red rosin paper first
Stage 2
Drawing on the canvas
Stage 3
Laying down first paint layer
.... to be continued